When I was in the hospital last week I got a visit from my new case manager, and honestly at first I was very skeptical and nervous about complicating any control I have over my treatment. But the past few days have really proved that I’m so lucky to have him help me out. When I was discharged, they didn’t talk to me about scheduling appointments, they just went ahead and scheduled it whenever, which happened to be Thursday at 9:30 am. I didn’t know this until I was already home. I am unable to drive and the bus only comes through my area twice A day, starting at 11. So it’s always very stressful and difficult for me to make it to appointments, and I knew I wouldn’t be Able to get to this one. What really upset me was that it was the appt to get my second invega shot, which is very important. After a panic attack from trying to do too much in one day and not being able to find transport for Thursday, I called Tony, the case manager, explained my situation, and he was so nice and understanding. He fixed everything quickly and efficiently, got in contact with people at CCS that I would have never gotten on the phone with alone. So it turns out they are sending a cab to my apartment tomorrow and paying for the fees, return fees too! And he set me up with a PA for my shot so I won’t be waiting for An hour, I’m just so relieved. I am really impressed With this service given by my health plan and I’m so so thankful, the amount of stress that getting to and from appointments causes is so awful. He also said tomorrow he will help me set up a van service to take me to my appointments from now on, since I qualify with my medicare.
I have been concerned that I left the hospital too early, that I just wanted to get out of that environment and put it ahead of my health. I’ve been feeling very….emotionally vulnerable? I become on the verge of tears for the smallest things, and I get worked up and upset over control issues, like noise levels and object placement. I’m telling myself its just med adjustment. But I guess we’ll see.

10 word story (via white—elephants)

thismeatisundercooked:

creative process

broadway-aradia:

i really want to carry a torch in a cave just like one time

(Source: veritasia)

camdencame:

Just a quick reminder that you are and NEVER will be beyond repair. You can always start over. You don’t need a new year, week or even day. Every second is an opportunity to start fresh with more wisdom than ever before.

So I was discharged from the hospital today. Only a week stay, which I am thankful for. Voices are quiet and I am able to focus and filter again. Thinking clear skies, I feel closer to myself again. My doctor convinced me to switch back to invega sustenna, with an added daily invega oral dose as my ap. I got off it about 6 months ago because of the side effects but I am now caught in that awful place of illness vs. side effects, I have to pick the best of the worst. But I feel like I’m in a better place, and will be able to manage the worst of the side effects successfully. And Artane is actually working to stop the tremors! Amazing. I’m going to start the 30 days of recovery soon. Recovery. I’m gonna do it this time. I’m going to get there. I can do it.
There were things that really bothered me about the psych hospital I stayed at. Tomorrow I think I will make a post about that, I am exhausted now. Unfortunately like a lot of hospitals this one was bought out by a corporation. But the treatment of patient relations and blatant ignoring of patient claims of harassment, etc. were quite awful.

staceythinx:

Super cute cactus cupcakes by Alana Jones-Mann 

compoundchem:

Version 1 of ‘A Rough Guide to Spotting Bad Science’. Thanks for everyone’s suggestions earlier in the week, attempted to include as many of them as possible!
Download link here: http://wp.me/p4aPLT-ap


This is something I wish I understood better, and knew how to apply to medications. Especially psychiatric medications because I feel like there’s so much going on behind the scenes with pharmaceutical companies and newer pills. It makes me really nervous and scared about what I’m putting into my body, and long term effects. I don’t trust the companies making the meds or the people giving them to me. I don’t believe the companies manufacturing antipsychotic medication have the patient’s best interests in mind, and that’s really, really terrifying to me.

compoundchem:

Version 1 of ‘A Rough Guide to Spotting Bad Science’. Thanks for everyone’s suggestions earlier in the week, attempted to include as many of them as possible!

Download link here: http://wp.me/p4aPLT-ap

This is something I wish I understood better, and knew how to apply to medications. Especially psychiatric medications because I feel like there’s so much going on behind the scenes with pharmaceutical companies and newer pills. It makes me really nervous and scared about what I’m putting into my body, and long term effects. I don’t trust the companies making the meds or the people giving them to me. I don’t believe the companies manufacturing antipsychotic medication have the patient’s best interests in mind, and that’s really, really terrifying to me.

(Source: divesandflies)

Clementine Von Radics (via missdontcare-x)

(Source: vomitbrat)

phosphorescentt:

life goals:

independence
intelligence
financial stability
cute face
cute butt
a little scary

deliciousdannydevito:

While we’re talking about what not to do on April Fools Day, let me remind everyone not to pull ‘unreality pranks’.

Don’t go up to a person and say ‘wake up’, ‘you’re dreaming’ (and especially don’t tag team it with two or three other people, saying the same thing)….

(Source: primadollly)

dangerscissor:

every friend group has that one friend that’s just a giant bird, who you might need to watch your back around lest you be impaled by their mighty talons. birds are ficklehearted, mysterious beasts. watch out for the bird friend.

kaltspiegel:

I made a compilation of scenes from the entire first season of Hannibal and removed eveything that had people in it.
I present you… Hannibal. Without people.

Music by David Firth